Neglect

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My body feels so old and stretched

my feet have wondered a million worlds

and my thoughts have climbed the highest montains

nothing ever came easy

I could never hold my nerve

when everyone stumbled I leaned with them

the stress and strain of so many words stung

so much terror and despute to remember

and not enough smiles to reflect on

i remember breaking in over stone walls

running as the sirens chased

rebellion was tattooed through our hearts

and the adrenaline to escape began

explosions followed our path

political reason became more flawed

there were strikes and there was hardship

my generation because the greatest victims of this broken nation

rare happiness hit long nights

chemically enhanced dreams made us mean

so much violence from where we came

others killed others

while in our bottles we drowned

i speak of broken times

of forgotten morals and enraged fools

where the upbringing was forgotten

while parents sat transfixed with the news

i watched young lives end themselves

while younger tried to vote

the strain of life upon their shoulders

matured and aged against the clock

since when have children behaved so old?

have they always held the need to die?

or carry babies when they remain babes

and hold thier own in thier premature lives?

like the fates stroking the threads of time

I look back over the 18 notches of mine

i feel so old and time feels slow

how did i manage to grow so old?

modern years are like toxic air

how do we breath on abuse and poisen?

so much happens and you all forget

you're troubled youth you have learnt to neglect

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